Number one for me (:

I was a foolish little child

Crazy things I used to do

And all the pain I put you through

Mama now I’m here for you

For all the times I made you cry

The days I told you lies

Now it’s time for you to rise

For all the things you sacrificed

Oh, if I could turn back time rewind

If I could make it undone

I swear that I would

I would make it up to you

Mum I’m all grown up now

It’s a brand new day

I’d like to put a smile on your face every day

Mum I’m all grown up now

And it’s not too late

I’d like to put a smile on your face every day

And now I finally understand

Your famous line

About the day I’d face in time

‘Cause now I’ve got a child of mine

And even though I was so bad

I’ve learned so much from you

Now I’m trying to do it too

Love my kid the way you do

You know you are the number one for me 

Oh, oh, number one for me

There’s no one in this world that can take your place

Oh, I’m sorry for ever taking you for granted, ooh

I will use every chance I get

To make you smile, whenever I’m around you

Now I will try to love you like you love me

Only God knows how much you mean to me

You know you are the number one for me 

Oh, oh, number one for me

through diificulties, we know who is friend

ASSALAMUALAIKUM. hyee kawan kawan. okayy. finally, u really made my day (: even though yesterday maybe the last time we met, but, itsokay. finally, i shared the thing that burden me. thank for being my ear. thanks. admit, i was quite shy. and fortunately i just tear up when we were in car. so, pretty sure u dont see it. yess. thankkss friend. I'll take ur words. I wont forget every single word, u said. 

hm, okay. forget about it. i just want to share this video, this song to all of u, friends. i played this song all the time today. special i dedicated to my dearest mama (:

mum i am all grown up now. and its not too late. i want to put a smile on your face everyday

i miss my happy family. i miss all the moment we had together. every single moment of us. every single minute we spend together. seriously, i MISS that . YA ALLAH, I know you are there Allah. I know you see my tears. I know you hear my prayers. I know you are testing me. And all I ask from you is to strengthen my Imaan so I can handle the struggles in life and have patience. I love you my Lord. My Allah. Please keep me safe. amiinn

*i am crying when i typed this post. 

Bunch of thanks my dearest friend. i need someone to talk to, but i dont know who's the 'someone'. i just keep all of this myself. alhamdulillah Allah sends u to me. u're the right one to talk to. ya, i know, ALLAH lah tempat kita mengadu kalau ada masalah. but, somehow, we need someone to talk to. we need someone to share our problem. at least, it can relief ourself. maybe they cant do anything, but, when u share problem with others, at least, kita rasa lapang sikit. 

okay lah. apa apa pun, i know, Allah tak akan bagi ujian yang hambanya tak dapat hadapi. theres a lot more people outside yang dapat dugaan lagi besar. if they can adapt it, they can pass through it, why not us. kan ? why not me ? why not u ? yess, bila dapat masalah, kita akan mengeluh.itu fitrah manusia. tetapi, jangan sampai menyalahkan takdir. ingat, we still have Allah to rely on. the only thing i can do right now is PRAY. inshaAllah everything will be better. 

friends, can i ask u a favor ? nothing i want . just pray from all of u, pray for me. pray for 'their' happiness. i dont mention, who them. but, they are muslim. same like us. why not we do simple thing to help each other, right ? 

I am home for surprised !

assalamualaikum :) heyyy . i am extremely feel HAPPY right now. wuuwuu. i am just back from MUAR. seriously, muar, im gonna to miss you. hha. awesome lahh. muar got Tutti Frutii. lalala. alahai, tutti frutti tu sebelah je dengan rumah kat subang ni ha. tapi tak pernah jugak aku merasa. one day maybe. nak bawa adik adik makan sekali :) and yes. back to tittle. I AM HOME FOR SURPRISED. yeahhh yeahh. succeed ! that friday, i am not planning pun nak balik. tiba tiba dalam bas otw pergi campus, rasa nak balik. wuuwuu. charger fon semua aku tak bawak :| hha. memang i taknak bagitahu siapa siapa pun that i am going back to muar. even my mum pun i tak nak bagitahu. wuuwuu. surprised lah ni kiranya. but, mum always got instinct kan ? my mum called me, tanya tak nak balik muar ke ? hhi. and i jst said, no maybe. got many works lah mum . 

okay. and tengah hari gerak pergi MID VALLEY. jumpa shu, caca, hanna, and ramai lagi lah. then, we separated. me, of course lah TBS. and my bus was at 630. kira okay lah tu kan. cehh :) awesome. 

actually, 12 MEI was my dad's birthday. okayy ALLAH SELAMATKAN KAMU. ALLAH SELAMATKAN KAMU. ALLAH SELAMATKAN PAPA SAYANG. ALLAH SELAMATKAN KAMU. ehehh. that morning kami semua buat donno je. konon lupa lah. hhi. okay. tengok lah malam tuu : 

this one, adik abang and me. fuhhh. puas buat senyap senyap. papa siap ketuk ketuk pintu bilik lagi. good one lah abang cover :)

we just bought SECRET RECIPE. slices je. nak beli yang whole punya, macam membazir. plus my family tak makan kek sangat. so, nak nampak awesome, beli slices. okay. yang ni punya surprised :) mama and papa tak tahu langsung kami beli ni . hhi 

may ALLAH bless our family. 

mama, why u look like that ? smilee pleasee . i LOVE themm !

before that night, mama, abang, adik and me go jalan jalan. i like keluar jalan jalan macam ni. lagi lagi dengan mama :)) wuuwuu . and, that time, abang just back from school. haihh. kat rumah dah lunch dah padahal. tapi disebabkan abang lapar,we went to KFC. seriously, my stomach full gila . mana tak gemok ? :o

once more, mama memang suka tak pandang kamera kann ?

this one for my beloved mama :) thanks mama cause taken care of me since i was a baby. and now, im already 18.  u'd thought me to be independent. to be a good a nice girl. to be strong to deal with any problem in life. i lovee you forever and ever. 

yess. dalam dunia ni, kita hanya dikurniakan satu mak, satu ayah. hilang nya tiada pengganti. so, jagalah mereka. make them happy. make them proud of u as they're still here. 

I love travelling

assalamualaikum. heyy friend. so yeahh. its so exciting week (: many things happened this week. antaranya :

MONDAY  nothing happened. jst answering biology quiz yang sangat buat akuu rasa nak terjun bangunan. ohh suck ! but then, that night, i went to buka puasa at SECRET RECIPE with fazeera . i ordered LASAGNA . err i forgot the full name. but, its sorta of lasagna for vegeterian lahh. i kan vegeteriann. hha. then , nak balik, ohmaigod. takde bas. its too late night. luckily ada abang mad yang baik :)) 

TUESDAY i got ETP drama practise. seriously malas nak pergi. malam tu memang tido nyenyak habis lahh. tengah bersiap nak pergi taylors, suddenly my phone menyanyi nyanyi. and i take a look , NAZMI . haihh apa mimpi tiba tiba call ni. and i picked up the phone. ''hajar, aku kat depan Subang Avenue ni'' what ? tak kecek awal awal nak datang subang . ''saje nak surprise''. then, after drama practise, immediately i turun sunway pyramid. ohsemm. syafirul also there . fuhh dengan aku berbaju kurung , ada ke patut mereka ajak main ice skate :o nazmi kata aku makin pendek . ohh what ? grrrr . and both nazmi and syafirul kata aku tembamm . sobsob . i was bullied by nazmi cause su tak nak turun hang dengan kami . grrr . but, seriously awesome lahh tht day . :)) . Hope to see them again soon. kalau jalan dengan nazmi, tak sah kalau jauh. kalau jalan dengan syafirul, tak sah kalau tak pergi minum. :/  

WEDNESDAY THURSDAY nothing special i think . class like usual . 

FRIDAY i went to Kelana jaya with Ros Alwani. like seriously, we were not planning at all the journey. hha, wht to say, main redah je. we went to Kelana Jaya Lakeside. fuhhh. like seriously, i was so excited. fuhh. lama gila tak pergi park macam ni. last time pun Mac hari tu kot. almost 2 month tak pergi park. so, kami duduk duduk ambil angin yang sepoi sepoi bahasa tuu . and i called mira una . errr, actually, dulu mira kursus depan tasik tu je. so yeahh. macam terkilan. and now, dah lama tak jumpa mira una. i miss her a lot. 

TODAY i went to fitness first. hha. guna guest card Azizul. free of charge ape. andd i can try anything there, and how long, it doesnt matter. so, fuhhh. agak semput lah tadi . dah lama kot tak excercise. azizul coach aku. hha. but, im absolutely tired. buat itu ini , bakar kalori bagai. urghh so tired. nampak sangat dah lama muscle aku tak bergerak . and lastly, I got SAUNA. first timee ! hha . terujaa gilaa budak sorang ni . 

andd so yeah. i like to travel. tambah tambah when i feel down. I tend to do something unpredicted. 

so yeah, this weekend, planning to have some doughnuts either Krispy Kreme or Big Apple with MR A :) eheh, he treats me . hoyehhh. 

  

AMIRA HUSNA ZAKARIA . hereee . i uploaded this picture special dedicated for u (: I've been here miraa 

ROS was so excited when she saw thiss ;P


NEVER PUT TO TOMORROW WHAT U CAN DO TODAY (:

a day with them (:

assalamualaikum . heyy awesome (: okayy, even though semalam ada BERSIH 3.0 , i was so willing to see my mum and siblings at INTERNATIONAL BOOK FAIR, PWTC . so yeahh, I went by my own. oh oh, so berani kan? apa boleh buat, tak kan nak susahkan orang. haihh. alhamdulillah, im safe. but, KTM was so suck ! crowded with people who wanted to join the assemble. as i arrived at KTM subang, i was so,, err ! like seriously, ramai gilaa orang dengan kuning merata rata. so suck ! all the way they jerit jerit, BERSIH BERSIH BERSIH. ehh , pening ler . 

and , dah sampai PWTC, mum called me. then, we met. oh yeah ! miss them so much ! seriously. abang dah kurus. dah handsome. hha. besar dah adik yang sorang ni. adik hanis seems no change. hha. well, she will be sit for UPSR this year. and aku pula yang terasa nervous. padahal dia biasa je.chill je. haihh. and MUM ! oh yeah ! i salam her and give her kiss (: lama dah tak kiss my mum ;p on the spot, mum asked me, mana kawan hajar? ehehh. sorry mummm :/

so yeah, jalan jalan . i bought 4 books. 2 books written by DR MUHAYA (: the others were ENGLISH and something for UNIVERSITY STUDENT. im not finished reading it, but, im sure its good ! thats why i buy it. 

okayy. so, i was with them about 3 hours. er, tak puas kan? kejap gilaa. i was crying when they need to go :( sedih kot. bila nak jumpa lagi ? alamat july nanti. ohhh ! tak tahan. for sure i'll back to muar as soon as possible . yeah. mum gave me tudung pelangi lagi . so excited . lagi excited bila tudung tu exactly tudung yang aku minat, but then tak dapat beli cause pendek. but then, the one that my mum bagi was okayy. tak pendek punn (: mum know her child better . i believe that !

and kami jalan jalan. like seriously kaki dah sakit. makan. i was makan makan and makan. eheh. feel guilty that time. but, its okay. dengan my family kot. bukan nya selalu kan ? hhi. 

then, balik balik, tiba tiba terasa nak makan cookies subway. and terus aku masuk summit. then, like seriously, when first i stepped into SUBWAY,,, lahh. HE's HERE. errr. and dengan pantas nya i turned back . tak jadi nak masuk. hha. -.-

okayy. i loveee u mama ! (:

IN FAMILY LIFE, LOVE IS THE OIL THAT EASES FRICTION, THE CEMENT THAT BINDS CLOSER TOGETHER AND THE MUSIC THAT BRINGS HARMONY

a day with BFTJ

assalamualaikumm. heyyy friendss :)) im freaking happy . wuu wuu seriously, today im too active. smiling all the day. takde orang tanya dah, haja kenapa awak nampak sedih? hha. because im REALLY HAPPY dear. okayy. bawah ni I show u the reasons why I was pretty happy todayy :D 

seriously i felt like dreaming. they came here! yess SUBANG :) 

both SYAHIRAH ;p i'm SHAFINAZ. hhi. got chemistry there rite ? syiro excited . sampai beli blaus baru lagi haa. 

taraa ! back to childhood. if im not mistaken, last time i done this was when i was in standard 5. woohooo. lama gilaa tak buat mende ni. and this time, i done this ! 

ehemmm. there's story that we created. ULTRAMAN syiro naik AEROPLANE hajar sebab nak balik HOME syahirah. AWESOMEE kann kami ? 

okayy. look here. syahirah was so scared . kelakar kot. ''korangg, aku dah tak nak main dahh. nak keluar lahh.'' hha memanjang bebel ayat sama. at last, i brought her to the middle and let her stand by herself. see, SHE DONE A GREAT job ! yess . seronok tengok dia happy !

kitaorang tak guna khidmat kameraman ice skating punn. kameraman kitaorang lagi pro. kredit to SYAHIRAH. ohhsemm. time ni ice was melting. hey, mereka sangat pro. tak jatuh gedebuk punn. steady jea . wuu wuu. tengok lah tenaga pengajar kann ;p 

seriously i was HAPPY gilaa that time. and of course i am happy cause i made them happy. but then, i thought nak ajak mereka makan JCO. but, then after ber'ice skatting' masing masing lapar gila. hha. nampak chicken rice shop, terus je serbu. hha. kelaparan yang amat lah tu. wa balun ayam . errr, i  felt guilty that time. dah lah pagi tu makan AUNTIE ANNE's .phewww. lemak ohh lemak. i know u jealous kann ?

and setiap pertemuan ada perpisahan. may Allah bless us. amiin. okayy, about a week more syahirah dah nak masuk PLKN. and me ? will back to MUAR on july. haihh. bila nak jumpa lagi ? seriously, i was likeee, YA ALLAH sedihhnyaaa ! bulan tujuh baru boleh jumpa balik these beautiful girls. i saw mata syiro berair masa kitaorang salam and say goodbye . like seriously, sedihh nyaa . 

special for both of you, 

SYAHIRAH ROSNAN a.k.a SYIRO 

be a good girl. maybe we are separate by distance, but then, u still in my mind.ALWAYS dearr. i never forget u. thanks for the pressie :)) thankss cause sudi datang sini. u're such an awesome friendd dear. eheeh. pandai dah kawan aku sorang ni naik bas :)) syiro dah matang -.-

SYAHIRAH WAGIMAN 

heyy wirawati. u take care dear. be a nice girl. we are meant together. wuuwuu. seriously, u are awesomee. lepas ni syera dah pro main ice skate ! hhi. kita kawan selamanyaa okayy. nanti dekat PLKN, jaga diri. i know u wont forget both of us -.-

BFTJ . amiiinnn . see u soon . thankksss a LOT dear friends !

macam mimpi pulak mereka datang sini. and mimpi tu terlalu singkat untuk aku :'( i know both of u will read this post, and here, SERIOUSLY, u are my friend dunia akhirat. amiinnn amiinn. 

got my name :)

assalamualaikum. morning all, morning shafinaz ;p okayy. someone call me SHAFINAZ. yess, thats my name, but somehow, people just called me HAJAR . or SITI. but then, SITI was jst when the person dont even know me. they jst saw my first name, then call me so. but then, tiba tiba someone request, can I call u shafinaz ? hohoo. i was like,, what ? awkward lah . seriously, if im not mistaken, last person who called me shafinaz was PUAN Salbiah. tht when i was in form 3. hha, still young girl. but, now, seriously, tak ramai and tak de kot orang panggil shafinaz. HHA . thts why rasa pelik . padahal, nama tu lah yang tertulis since 18 years ago. 

but, then, i lovee when people called my full name,  seriously :)) 

ehemm, Mr A sangat baik. he's very awesome. always there for me. thanks alots. seriously, sometimes i feel guilty cause i didnt do anything for you. but then, u always lend ur helping hand. always ! MAY ALLAH BLESS YOU AND YOUR FAMILY . amiiin.  peeps, pray for him . semoga kau akan jumpa cerminan kau . i mean, if u got problem, Allah will ease you . He will send u a helping hand like u done for me . respect u Mr A !

about a few hours to go :)) byee 

i am SITI HAJAR SHAFINAZ :))

money is not everything

assalamualaikum. heyy dude. seriously, im excited waiting for tomorrow. hope all is well :)) dear syahirah rosnan, syahirah wagiman, im waiting for both of you :)) 

okay. MONEY. yess. one may says, money is not everything. but not having it is, can u still survive without even a cent of money ? surely cant. even to enter the toilet need money dear. haiyoo. so then, kalau takda duit, nak melepas kat mana ? ishh. basically people will say, money do not play an important role in life, but then, everything need money. 

many argued about money and its significance. for me, actually, money plays a ig role, but, the significance will appear once we use it in the right way. surely, having a lots of money cant guarantee a happiness life u have. and im pretty sure, that there are many people outside there are unhappy with their life. they still finding for the real happiness.

but, if one uses the money on the right way, it could be easier for him/her.money doesnt guarantee happiness, but it sure can be easier for people to access something. but then, use the money in the right way . duit tu ada kaitan dengan kehidupan . kalau kita guna dia untuk kebaikan, insyaAllah berkat tu berterusan. 

bila kita meninggal dunia, semua benda duniawi terputus dari kita. hanya 3 benda sahaja yang akan bagi kita pahala berterusan:

1. doa anak yang soleh
2. amal jariah 
3. ilmu yang disampaikan

*not sure the sequence. but, its something like that lahh. imagine, kita keluarkan rm1 , masukkan dalam tabung masjid. lepastu, masjid ni guna duit tu untuk letak air cond. sejuk je jemaah nak sembahyang. betul tak ? as long as air cond tu still functioning, u still got the pahala. insyaALLAH. easy kann ? islam is easy dude :))

okayy, cerita about money, i got this one teller bank, encik, u kerja, i respect u. yess. but then, kerja ada etika kerja kann ? ''heyy. im teller bank yg you nak withdraw tadi. u kesah tak i ambil number u?'' heyy, encik, saya letak number tu sebab nak isi borang. no manners betul lah.  

err, got call from him-.- seriously, he's such a kind friend. yesss. i likee :)) 

i learnt something. to appreciate others, its not only u can show by money. some need pray from us. :)) 

u still have future

ASSALAMUALAIKUM . jika anda hilang segala galanya , be thankful. cause u still have FUTURE :) okayy , sekarang weather windy je kan . kalau main layang layang mesti best. tiba tiba teringat kat HOMEROOM ZUHIMMAH. wuuwuu. layang layang kita terbang paling tinggi kan ? seronok ! judger tu pun sampai tak percaya layang layang kita tu kan ?

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With every breath you take, someone just took their last. Be thankful for your life, do good while you are allowed, and never forget your ultimate destination!

yeahh . alhamdulillah . finally we succeed ! nampak tak muka bahagia kami ? syafirul ariff, thanksss helping us. err, rocket kali ni dah cantik sikit dari yg before . 

okayy. this is my pretty roomate. she's very nice :)) her name is FATHIN ATIQAH 

andd after finished launching the water rocket, I try this one . wuuwuu. seriously hard maa ! keluar peluh keayuan aku tau. orang kat bawah jerit jerit, go HERBALIFE ! amboii haa, hang tak mau try . main jerit jerit haa :P

Life is going to be filled with painful moments. Some that are caused by others and others that are a result of your own doing. It has been my experience that if you take care of the painful moments that we create ourselves, the pain that others cause is not as painful. Always be cautious of the sins you commit, be hasty in repenting to Allah, and make Allah your ultimate goal in life. You will survive and you will succeed. InsyaAllah

they are like eraser

MUM AND DAD are very special person. they shaped us to become a good person. to be a person. to be someone. they even sacrofoce themselves to make sure that their children get the BEST in their life. its like a story about PENCIL AND ERASER

PENCIL : I'm sorry 

ERASER : For what ? u didnt do anything wrong. 

PENCIL : I'm sorry cause u get hurt because of me. whenever i made a mistake, u're always there to erase it. But as u make my mistakes vanish, u lose a part of urself. u get smaller each time

ERASER : Thats true. but i dont really mind. u see, i wans made to do this. i was made to help u whenever u do something wrong. even though one day, i know u'll be gone and u'll replace me with a new one, i'm actually happy with my job. so,pleasee, stop worrying. i hate seeing u sad :)

this conversation is very inspirational rite? parent are like erase whereas their children are the pencil. they're always there for their children, cleaning up their mistakes. sometimes along the way, they get hurt, and become smaller  (smaller and eventually pass on). though their children will eventually find someone new (spouse), but parents are still happy with what they do for their children and will always hate seeing their precious one worrying or sad. 

*i take these from PROF DR MUHAYA.

seriously, i respect her so much. i really want to meet her for the second time. ya ALLAH, pleasee, give me a second chance . terkilan kot masa first time jumpa, i even dont know her. 

dear mama and papa, seriously, i loveee uuuuu soo much ! thanks for taking care of me since i was in ur tommy :))