DEAR PUAN NORLIZAH

Hari-hari hari mama (:

Dear mama,

Terima kasih for being the best mother for us. Terima kasih besarkan kami berempat.

Dulu mama selalu tak datang waktu hari terbuka. Sedihnya time tu Dia je yang tahu. I've been so excited to show you my result. To let you hear all the good comments from my teachers. Jeles dengan kawan kawan lain yang parents diorang beratur amik nombor giliran duduk sebelah, cikgu tunjuk keputusan. Bila aja dapat naik pentas, you rarely been there. Sedihnya. 

But I know mummy, you're working hard for me, for us. Takpeee. Pujuk diri sendiri.

Mama, 

Thankyou for always been there for me. Ya, you're not always been there physically, but you never fail to comfort me. Masa sekolah dulu, Bila rasa susah belajar, you'll try so hard to relieve my worriedness. Mama hantar aja tuisyen personally dengan cikgu. Sedangkan kawan lain tak de macam tu pun. 

Mama bawa balik buku buku rujukan bertimbun timbun. Haaa buku latihan lagi, even i rarely complete it most of the time, aherher

Bila masuk uni, u bought be everything. Dengan kereta lagi, laptop lagi, katil, study table. Yea. Everything ma. Yet. Im still not being a good daughter. 

I've been rude sometimes. 

Stubborn most of the time. 

But, trust me, I never do that intentionally. I just been too emotional sometimes :(

Terima kasih untuk segala doa ikhlas mama. Seriously ma, without your du'a, im not who i am now.

Terima kasih sebab selalu bebel bebel suruh kemas bilik, 

thats how I learn how to tidy up my room eventho lepastu selerak balik. Muahah. 

Terima kasih sebab selalu suruh bangun cepat, 

thats how I trained to not sleep after fajr prayer and make use the time 

Terima kasih sebab selalu suruh buat kerja sendiri, 

thats how I learn to be independent.

Terima kasih untuk segalanya, dari A sampailah ke Z.

Dari aorta sampailah ke cerebral artery and all it branches, sampai ke dorsalis pedis artery. 

You are like my heart ma.

Without you, seriously how my body will function well. You are the one who pumps out all the needs to all my body, my life, without you, i'll be hypoxic. 

Dear mama, sempena hari ibu, I wish you semoga berbahagia selalu. Semoga dipermudahkan segalanya. I promise to never leave you alone. I will always take care of you. *takenotebakalsuami . Nanti dah kerja, dah ada duit banyak, aja buatkan rumah untuk mama okay? (:

I love you now and forever

Muar to Sg buloh

Assalamualaikum ! Hye people. Duhhh! Masih tak boleh sign in thr laptop lagi. Im totally forget. Wuuu. Janganlah amnesia muda muda T.T so, we're done with internal med's posting. Hoyeahh! Tapi masih banyak perlu belajar. Sebab exam haritu tunggang terbalik juga. 

Em em, last haritu dapat jumpa sorang patient ni. She's just 19. And she was severely depressed. Since she was 16. And haritu she's still weak. She can't really think as a normal teen does right now. She cant even know whether she's hungry or feeling thirst. So her mum needs to take care of her. Feed her, motivate her. Everything ! Dear F, pleaseeee bangun lah. Your mum really misses you. Your dad, your brother. Even me, yang baru jumpa 2 hari pun teringin nak dengar you bercakap, gelak sama sama.  Hmmm

Okay. So someone asked me "kau pandai masak tak?" 

Cehh dengan bangganya aku pun berkata "ofcourse!" Muahahaha

Sekali dia tanya, haa masak ikan patin sambal tempoyak.

Adeyhhh! Gua tepuk dahi je lah mampu.

Sedihnya hati sebab tak tahu masak :( takpeee, masih banyak masa kan? Tapi serious sedih woihh. Sepanjang perjalanan balik ke sungai buloh terfikir fikir. 1 jam pertama ofcourse melayan air mata sedih meninggalkan muar, tapi lepastu berfikir fikir juga benda lain. 

So SITI HAJAR SHAFINAZ, here is the list that you need to take note.

1. Masak. (Takkan hari hari nak berlapar oi. Nanti kalau duduk dengan suami, kesian suami hang. Kena  ikut berlapar. Muahaha)

2. Sewing skill (nanti senang nak jahit seluar anak terkoyak, ke poket lab coat terkoyak ke. Sambil sambil tu boleh improve suturing skill. Nanti patient mesti suka bila aku yg menjahit. Hehe)

3. Driving skill dan ambil tahu more about kereta (yg ni tak tahu kenapa tapi aku rasa menarik kalau ambil tahu)

4. Berzanji skill (sebab selalu attend kenduri kahwin ada berzanji zanji, tapi semua golongan nenek nenek je. Generasi aku? Tiadaa weyy. Nanti anak cucu aku kahwin siapa nak berzanji?)

5. Saving ! (Untuk masa depan lebih cerah. Memanglah duit tak bawa ke mana. Tapi menabung itu amalan mulia. Kalau asyik dok melayan nafsu nak itu nak ini. Tak boleh jugak kan? Sampai bila nak keluar duit tanpa menabung? Haihh. Sekarang pun kos sara diri dah tinggi, apatah lagi 10 tahun lagi. So mari menabung)

6. Tabung untuk wishlist. Eheeee. I memang ada dua tabung, 1 tabung untuk penuhi wishlist. 1 tabung untuk masa depan. I divide it into 2. Because im a little bit boros. So disebabkan itu, aku buat dua jenis tabung. And tak kacau tabung masa depan tu. kalau nak berboros pun, guna duit wishlist. Haaa. 

7. And ofcourse I was thinking about taknak susahkan parents lagi. They had done a lot for me. Sedih rasa bila banyak benda they sacrificed, yet im still be a stubborn daughter. Haihh. But I never want to be stubborn or rude or what, it just I'm being emotional sometimes. Doing thing without thinking. Hm. 

Semoga mampu berubah wahai hajarshafinaz. 

Ohyaaa, im now in paeds posting. Hoyeahhh! But never meet patient yet. Tomorrow will be my first day. So good luck to me. Aherher. Berdebar debar pulak nak layan babies. Harapnya mereka tidak takut dengan gigi besi ni. Almaklum sebelum ni memang jumpa budak budak, mereka akan terkinjakinja dan memandang janggal pada pagar di gigi ini. Siap nak tarik lagi. Huaaaa.